Jared Leto of 30 seconds to Mars, I knew he is famous for something else (not acting) I didn't know he can sing...

I replay it over and over again, of course to remind me not to forget. How can I?

Yellow light, empty, quiet night... I wasn't scared as before I was too tired to feel anything. This morning I cursed at someone, at those selfish people who think they are above everyone.

Why was I mad? Was it because of the stupid thing my insensitive friend told me? Was it because I was in doubt? Was it because I am afraid? Was it because I know what's going on even they all are trying to cover up with lies?

If they can say whatever coming out of their little nugget heads then I can do whatever I want and dont even think about telling me what to do. What so ever!

Effort, patience... gosh!!!

What am I doing wrong? I shed so much tears over what?

I handled better than I thought, probably the plain simple truth just disappointed me so much. Who knows it may hit me later... well just another chain of breakdowns. What can be worse when hope*love*trust have lost? Together at the same time right in front of you?

Talk about deep-cut-if-ever-heeled wound... my heart keeps bleeding, my tears keeps falling, my hatred keeps pouring...

Why doing this to me? Am I not a caring sweet considerate enough girl? Am I not a person with feeling and need? Am I made of stone?

If my love is not enough, why dont just fucking leave me alone. If I ever need anyone around me? I did and no one cared... Now I just dont need it anymore.

This world of loneliness is full of lies which made up of people you trust and love the most that pretty much makes you wanna turn your back on all.

I'm so tired, tired, tired, so fucking tired...

Whatever comes I dont care anymore. I just dont feel it anymore. "Even the most endless love could wear out", mine is happening. Do I have to say I am sorry?

How many times did we say sorry? Maybe it just doesnt mean to be.

Hey you know what I'm gonna have fun and yes we are still friends, just dont ask me later how and why I am this way...

G'luck with whatever you'r planning...